Cracked Polystyrene Man

hello

2005-11-30T00:17:00.000-08:00

heya guys and not so guyish ppl.... i will be moving my blog to http://13november.multiply.com/, gonna try it out for a while, cos i think its easier to post pics. anyway i will be posting some pics of my prison stay soon on the new webby. that if the prison guards allow me.

muahahahahhaha

intelligence report

2005-11-07T03:01:00.000-08:00

i just sprained my ankle last monday, so walking is such a pain... i finally know what it feels like to be old. anyway i sprained it while playing basketball. jumped for the rebound and landed on someones foot. the whole leg twisted to the left and "prak!!!". ouch.......
somemore. i take 3 day mc and i have to deduct 260$ from my allowance, which is i think something very fucked up. no wonder no body want to take mc here.... ppl rather take off when they sick.

it has been Hari Raya Holiday since Friday, i been essentially staying in camp, planning to save money, as the next pay day is so long away. i keep myself occupied with sleeping, eating, watching tv, reading newspaper, smoking, doing my laundry, and duty.

but during this holiday, i went out (futher than the aman shopping complex) twice...both to the airport. and during these trips to the airport i went along the way to the chief of brunei airforce's house to drop of something, the commander's friend's (who is very big fuck) house. i notice that brunei ppl have very big houses, and many cars. each house has at least 3 cars. and richer ppl have 6 cars..including a merc or a sports car.
i also went past the istana.. wich is having an open house now, and dammmm....it is bigggggg!!!!!
so dammm big, the gate itself is like 4 storey's tall and 50 meters of gold plated grill. the chief of airforce himself has i counted 3 maids and a butler.
tomorow back to work, so sian....at least time pass faster when i work.

63 more days to go then i can go home

tomoro is holiday!

2005-10-20T04:04:00.000-07:00

tomoro is a brunei boliday! i heard its when the Koran first landed on earth or somehing. but anyway, a holiday is a holiday.
today, standard rain at 5pm...like normal. so sian... life run become static pt! i hate static pt. i cant even do 5 diamond push up! wan me do 3 set of 20! xiao!!!.....the stupid staff sg crazy one .thank god for mutu the barber.... imagine a haidcut, head, back and neck rub, wash hair for only 4 dollar! damm worth it! i think i got a new bad habit.. cut hair.
if u guys like to know when i can come back, i think its Febuary, SUX!!!! cos gotta wait 3 months from arival to be able to go back..... at least can go back total of 3 times not like thailand or taiwan.
tomorow holiday... i donno wat to do leh....
saturday is guard duty day! fux man... next month got 8 duty, and its the norm... somemore its the draw arms prowling type. but i find it better than last time duty... cos got bed can sleep better. and only bad thing is gotta stand for 4 hrs with webbing and rifle at least its beret and not helmet
and finally i get my lan jiao ping title of LCP.

lancer

2005-10-15T03:32:00.000-07:00

i am now in lancer, first impression is that its just another ordinary camp. but got air con bunk, pool table, baketball court! wah... actually quite shiok here. only that i already feeling bored.
the cookhouse is probably to die for.... i would actually pay for the food they serve for free. canteen is legendary, and merokok is damm cheap.
air con bunk damm cold, so i just bought a futton or watever u call it. now i working as registry,... finally a real clerk job. but i think i gotta get used to my work, cos i don't think im good at paperwork. i dont have any OA, actually the entire camp only got 2 OA one for the colnel and one for comsend.
anyway, i just got a lancer sim card.... next thing i gonna buy is ps2 and a tv. gotta remit more money next month though.
people here not bad lah. but problem , my chief like to talk malay, so got comm problem
till next time...

Onward

2005-10-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

i
will be leaving for Lancer on the 13th of October 2005.
Feels like first day of school
like enlistment day
that strange feeling
i think everyone gets it some point in their life
that feeling of impending doom..
or is it really?

This might be what dying feels like.
Can Death be considered as moving on?

moving on is hard
But it is something i must do.

i have no more wisdom

2005-09-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

i lost my wisdom!!!......tooth. actually 2 of them. one top right, and one bottom left. pull them both out in one sitting, when i was down with a flu. actually, i wanted to postpone my extraction due to my flu, but the dentist( my cousin ) say its ok, as long as i can breathe through my nose.
i never knew my cousin is so violent.... she like a human jackhammer! using brute force to push my teeth out. pure fucking torture i tell u.

anyway you might be wondering why i pulled out two teeth at once , as it would be better to pull out one by one... as i can get double mc. but i want to get it over with, and can quickly clear my dental FFI which is the last thing stopping me from getting posted overseas.

so.... im now enjoying my 8 day mc....nice to have a break after so long. feels just like poly school holidays.

Captain's log, stardate 08092005-1859

2005-09-08T03:55:00.000-07:00

i estimate that its been 3 weeks since i blogged. since then, i passed my driving test!!! muahahaha!!!! finally i pass, this time scraping past with 18 points. i guess the tester could have failled me easily, as my vertical parking was like shit. but at least i dint do anything stupid like last times.

last week was my birthday, and once i got back on monday, larry gave me 1 extra weekend duty as a present. fuck desmond. he caused it... i will give him my own operation, and give him a year MC when he comes back. out of all Duty doing NSF i was chosen cos i was sitting in front of him. cheese piE!!!!!

yesterday was the CSC graduation, i found it fun, actually. better than staying in camp doing sai kang. sai kang outside is always better. funniest thing is when i was in a bus taking photos with my camera phone and commandant and wife saw me!! he look at me, i salute him, hope he dont mind me taking photos in there otherwise hong kan i got extra!

actually i haben get extra in my ns life... yet. hope i neber get. but now do duty wif shaun! AHHHHHH!!! he go lock up liao... later i better go check the locking up. cos comfirm today got DFO come back.

im getting paranoid

2005-08-27T01:43:00.000-07:00

haha! i just put a netstat link onto my page! so i can see how many ppl see my blog and if got garmen ppls come and see! then i can know when to lie low and not gonna kena sue buy garmen!

Bori Dom

2005-08-27T00:54:00.000-07:00

i wanna go post overseas soon man!
think this college is filling up with more and more bullshit. i need a change, a challange and not everyday shovelling bullshit. but anyway SAF man everyday is drowning in bullshit. no matter where in the world. so i hope taiwan bull come out better shit.
i just read an article about finding a job. it says that if u wanna be happy ur rest of ur working life (that means until u die) u shd find a job that u will gladly do for free.
i wanna go on holiday for free.. is that a job?
now got bangla put power point in the auditorium. i ask how much it all costs? supervisor say around 15 k dollar. FARK! they pay me 350 dollar and they spend 15k to give orbiser power to laptop.. fuck u.. go charge ur battery before lesson old man! u want to cut costs.. dont spend it on useless things like give foreign orbiser transport to their hotel tell them to take the fucking cab. i take the cab and i cannot claim. SAF fucking finance department has the most bullshit detected on earth. y the fark i get 350 when ppl downgrade from combat pay still get 200$ combat pay when they oso clerk?
money makes the world go round. so put it properly.. not like spending on fark up things and giving orbisers better treatment.
orbiser all got 2 ball 1 cok like me (except ger 1) so they the same as me. u got see 3 ball or 2 cock pls tell me. as i can see saf got no leadership, thats my frank opinion, comming from my observations. they cant fucking lead for peanuts! no matter how much peanuts they r given.
one reason i wnanna leave this farked up college is that its like a sinking ship... i can feel it sinking. and as a rat on this shit filled boat, i gotta get the fuck outta here. and jump into a nother boat with lesser bullshit. i reckon that all saf boat almost quite full liao.. so i try my luck.

As you can see, i am very frustrated.

Priceless

2005-08-25T20:35:00.000-07:00

250 + steps of torture.....
1.5 minutes of pain........
30 levels of hell..........
1 minute of the best view in singapore.....

priceless

The story of my driving

2005-08-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

I have been learning driving since i turned 18, failed basic theory 5 times, failed advance theory 13 times (plus or minus 2), failled my practical twice, both immediate failures, and had more than 40 points each.

Do you want me to drive U?

boobies!!!!

2005-08-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

dont mind if i do but im gonna be kinda dirty now. femenists be warned

ok... just now i go drink tea with friends at holland V. meet 8.30, but i leave house early, usually i take 106, but this time i take 74, then i saw the nicest ger wif the best pair of boobs i have seen in months! OMFG!!

she was sitting on a bench at the pick up point of some HDB block, reading a mag, bending down. And the greatest pair of boobies hang down in her low cut shirt thingy. she dressed quite decent but somehow just revealed just enuf 2 show em. fuckin hell... i was from neutral mood, to FUCKIN HAPPY in less than 0.6 seconds.

of cos i turned around to take another look.. and i bumped into an auntie going home from work. some aunties were doing tai chee nearby saw me and laughed. thinking i a chee ko pei.

i find all women in the earth should have nice boobs. it would make the world a better place. hope they find the right gene for nice boobs and genetically modify all women!

p.s: contary to popular belief, i am not homo

i feel disgusted

2005-08-23T04:31:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH!!! i feel so disgusted eating meat. all of the sudden, i just feel like puking out chicken and fish.
the chicken was lying there spread out with its wings and legs chopped off! fucking hell! so disgusting, imagine you lying in a dish and going in to be baked.
i have these sudden urges to turn vegan a few times a year. usually triggered by something cruel i have experienced or heard.
this time its that poor snail and the article of the serial killer who cut little boys scrotums and pulled out their testicals
i think by friday i'll be back eating meat.

Snail

2005-08-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

How does it feel like when you know you have to die today? when you have no control of your impending and almost certain doom. Can death really be described as doom, or is it a process which makes you lose all consiousness, feeling and presence?

these are questions no mortal man can hope to answer with accuracy without the help of God. but what about a snail, one of Gods creations, born to eat grass, leaves and faeces. its life so insignificant as its death, no one will mourn for it, except for the man who has to clean his boot, which in a moment has just crushed it into inexsistance.

the poor creature crossing the cold wet concrete pavement, leaving a trail of slime when it crawls. trying to get to the other side where the grass is greener. probably never getting there and will never have the tought of turning back. why must man have to create and construct.. concrete pavements to aid his mobility, when millions of snails die terrible deaths just because, the pavements block their freedom to explore and feed?
Murder!

what have i done to deserve this

2005-08-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

a thought has just come to my mind.
i am a clerk in safti going home every day. the friends i have grown up/ fucked around/ played/ laughed/ cried with are suffering. moron is with the finest batallion in the SAF, lao gan is in 23 SA. G is in combat engineer. robin is patroling the streets while we are sleeping. G says he has to dig holes all day and night for a week. poor thing. but i have no right to comment on their suffering, as i have never experienced it before. as some may say, tong ren bu tong ming.
What have i done to deserve this?
heard of that song by pet shop boys?

i love duty

2005-08-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

few people know the significance of duty. and what it can do to a man.i continue to do duty. because, what will bring about the greatest good in the long run, and to the most people, is not always what the individual desires at the moment.

i am aware of the fact that it is possible to avoid the troubles of doing my duty. but to purchase one's own happiness at the expense of others, and to purchase present satisfaction by an act which will bring less good in the end are things i will not bring myself to do.

The root of the problem is that we as human beings have primitive impulses that lean towards achieving our individual needs. these impulses tug toward all sorts of acts which would prove disastrous either to ourselves or others.

We are all fools when we do what is virtuous. we are only human to do what we feel

you know what i mean

good night

i am pissed

2005-08-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

i am very angry.

thought of the day

2005-08-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

today i wake up ok. late, but ok. went to CG at 2.30, had a meaningful discussion about the conflict happening around us. and how the garmen is being religously neutral. which is good... i feel in this time and day. but makes me think what if it was normal in society for ppl in the garmen to express their faith in their religeon. sry for my spelling, i not really bothered to spell right as long as u understand wat i mean.
anyway. i met gk and lao gan to go bugis in the evening, lao gan was as usual late though he live so close to the station. then we go eat mac, and i try out the new nugget sauce "wasabi dunnowat" quite good. but even better when mixed wif katsup. then we go meet gk 2 friend, and saw steve. gk friend ... oh damm i 4got wat name liao, but ok la quite cute la.. though short..haha. drink kopi until 11 then actually gk wan come my house paint my model tank wif airbrush. but think dowan cos lazy to walk the 1km from mrt to my hse. so i sleep alone once again.

i smell a weekend part 3

2005-08-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

damm, i accidentaly deleted part 1 , guess it wasnt fated to be shown in the net, perhaps the garmen put mind control device in my hed prevent me from posting politkaly senzitive ideas, causing me to delete my post and cause a tempory loss of basic motor skills. or maybe i just need to blog more and get used to this. and be less paranoid. hope garmen not lookin at my blog. anyway, just keeping a log: i have just finished the wheels, tracks and back section of my new project, a model kit tank,looking good. bought it on impulse, but thoroughly enjoying the experience of doing it. maybe i should put some pics of my progress, need a camera, and a way to put pics here though.

i SMELL A WEEKEND PART 2

2005-08-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

weekends smell of new MRT stations, chicken chop, rain, haze, and faint perfume of a passerby. my mom is commenting about my slowly enlarging organ of my body.........ya u guessed it , its my belly. i have never had a belly, must be the safti mi water. mom is suspecting that im being posted to overseas as a spy, i suspect she works for the northen enemy. today morning really sucked. i dint know the students were going for a visit to places today and tmr, so the vehicle wasnt indented. damm, i shd have read blackboard. CSM panicked, Shaun panicked, TCO panicked and i was panicked, Csm nearly blew his top under pressure. kinda dangerous moment. i smell a weekend comming

Sataurday morning 9.15

2005-08-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

damm i feel like fux. trying to find out wat the name of the song i always hear on lush. ahh... lush 99.5, never fails to make me relax like eskimoicecream in the hot Saturday morning sun.
got headache, maybe becos hangover, but i never hangover befor.... must be the roon put something in my drink last night want to make me horny.

posting

2005-08-12T09:15:00.000-07:00

got one button called posting in this bloggin tingy... reminds me that i may be in taiwan before i know it. dont noe what to expect. but i made my decision. so lan lan la. should me ok la. kinda will miss this hell hole called SCSC... one reason being the new P4 coms and the other being the ppl i work with (the fellow minions in this hell hole). i gotta felling i will be
1. kena tekan in taiwan until KIA
2. kena AIDS
3. Kena Bore Dom virus
4. Kena Home sick Bacteria
5. Kena charge for something
6. Lose my mind (although i havent found it yet)
7. and maybe.. enjoy myself. and have a meaningful time there

but first... haven comfirm why i think so much ar?

Before i sleep with my sex slave(Colin)
i sign out with one quote :

Sin bravely...We will never have all the facts to make a perfect judgement, but with the aid of basic experience we must leap bravely into the future.

learnig how to use this silly thing

2005-08-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

wahh i dint know blogging is so hard... tot just type wat u think.. stil got computer code to deal with. i tot i see enuf when in poly, but the results are worth the effort. finally got a noteworth blog on the net. all thanx to my sex slave colin

hello

2005-08-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

this is my first post so is say nothin much la... doing duty and see everyone got blog. so create loh.... sian.. duty and duty and duty and duty and duty and duty and duty .. u get the point.. just copy and paste. at least duty can disturb colin.tomorow saataarrrday!!!! Go home sleep, maybe go out. and as SOP play snooker with batman, and lao gan, and maybe robin. I WAN ORD!!!

Ahhh.. i smell a weekend

1990-01-01T00:59:00.000-08:00

today is a Thursday. i am watchin snooker on the tv. i like to play snooker. i do not like to go to work. today i was under pressure. seriously under pressure. early morning cock up. getting used to it. it is a friday tomorow. when will this end? when will this end.